Snowy Day Thoughts

People would like to think science and or religion has civilized us. Nothing

could be further from the truth. We are as rat brained and fear based a species

as our proto human ancestors. Hope is not our greatest asset and hinderance. Fear

plays a much bigger role in who and what we are. Fear created the gun and the

seat belt. Fear is why you are married and have children. Fear is why some of

have better relationships with their animals then there own kind. Do you think racism

would be as prevalate If men didn’t fear someone of another race taking what he

sees as his. When people hope something will come to pass that is indeed still

fear based. Lately I have tried to see my fears and judge them accordingly. Some

still have merit most don’t. The one thing I have never feared is the truth.

I would like to say laziness has made me hate working but I know deep down that is

not true. I can honestly say that I my brain was never made to work a 9 to 5.

Or 8 to 4 or 3 to 11 or 11 to 7. My mind is firing on all cylinders with creative

thought around midnight and what am I doing then. playing at being a cog. The only

reason I work is for my family. if it wasn’t for that fuck you mr. contributing

member of society. With that being said I respect people who can work a job

thirty to forty years scarcely complaining. I almost want to be like them.

almost.

I FIND IT VERY HARD TO GIVE A FUCK ABOUT MOST T

Things I don’t give a fuck about (yes there are a few)

I COULD HONESTLY NOT GIVE TWO SHITS ABOUT:

SPORTS: watching grown men play games and become superstars during their career

and brands after they finish got old for me by the time the bulls won their second

championship back in the early 90’s. Why the fuck should I support people who in

all likelihood wouldn’t even talk to me if I saw them in public. I respect stay at

home moms who can raise up right citizens more the some selfish millionaire who’s

been told since he was in high school that he was the fucking man so much that he

actually began to believe it. Half of these dumb fuckers are broke ten years later.

WHITE PEOPLE OF SAY NIGGER: I know you say it, you know you say it, we all know

you say it so let’s just cut the shit and be done with you being bashful and

ashamed when you know full well the word is powerful. That word isn’t going away

anytime soon. As long as white daughters are fucking black guys to piss their

parents off (sometimes it may even be true love) white men will always use the

word: nigger.

POLITICS: it was a scam from day one and yet for some reason we still follow these

so called leaders. They will speed humanity to our doom that much faster. I expect

my president to lie to me because no president has proven that they won’t tell lies

directly to your face while smiling and holding your baby. Keep your bullshit

opinion on Barack Obama to yourself because he is just a figure head like all

presidents. Call me when you have five million people behind you and you

want to bring the government down around its ears and start another revolution.

I DONT CARE:

IF MY TAXES GET RAISED. I’LL EAT AT WENDY’S LESS

IF WOMEN GET ABORTIONS. I DON’T HAVE A VAGINA .

IF MEXICANS JUMP THE BORDER. I DON’T WANT TO WASH DISHES FOR 50 CENTS AND HOUR

AND I DON’T LIVE BY THE BORDER.

IF YOUR CHILDREN GET FAT. WE NEED SOMEONE TO MAKE FUN OF. FATTY.

IF YOU DO DRUGS. NOT EVERY PERSON IS GOING TO BE A PRODUCTIVE CITIZEN.

AND IT MAKES BLOWJOBS EASIER TO OBTAIN.

YOU CAN LIKE ME IF YOU WANT TO. IF YOU DON’T….I COULD CARE LESS.

Making your way in chicago

I’m sure if I told you this yet but I came from a poor family. Not dirt floors wood burning stove West

Virginia shoeless but poor nevertheless. I went to Catholic school but momma must

have gotten some kind of discount for being poor Christians or something because I can tell any journey

I made back in the day started with my family and I getting on a bus or “L” and by an early age I knew

the transit system like the back of my hand not only to get my younger brother and myself but to go to

places I deemed fun. Unfortunately when you use these forms of transportation you are at the whim of

the individuals who are moving you along the sitting and a captured audience for any asshole who

wishes to have fun with you. If a bus driver wanted to grab something to eat at his favorite restaurant

was on this particular route you’re just going to have wait for the driver to put in an order and get their

food. I can think of several occasions of this happening. On my way home from ST. Malachi on the

Western ave bus a crazy bum got on. I call him crazy because he was talking incoherently and he pissed

his pants while seated on the bus so crazy old fuck is an apt term. He did this in one of the front seats so

the bus driver noticed this and proceeded to curse him out for pissing on her bus in that seat. So as a

courtesy he wipe the seat of piss with one strong swipe of his hand. The lady sitting directly across from

him seemed a little upset by that. The two times my mother had her purse snatched was while she was

waiting on a bus or getting on a bus. The kid of took her purse while she was waiting on the bus actually

had a conversation with her and as she got on the bus he grabbed it from her and run. Another time she

was with a “friend” (That is code for black women which means “I am fucking this guy right now until he

gets serious or something else better comes along”) with some other useless bastard ran off with her

purse. The funny part of this story is that the purse got no money. From time immemorial my mother

has keep her money in her left tit. If you take her purse the only parting gifts you will receive is lip stick,

gum, some coins and pictures of her boys. Queer shit always seem to happen on the bus or train I was

on. My mother was taking little brother and myself to a movie when cops jumped on a bus with their

guns pointed at some older Mexican guy inside and outside the bus. I never found out what he did but it

must have been something big time to endanger a bus full innocent passengers then again they were

only mostly blacks and a few brown people. There have been times were I have actually been ashamed to

be black on a bus. Snatching gold chains was an events I had seen my share of. As a person was getting

off a bus he would grab the chain of his victim. On this one occasion a Mexican woman was on the

Pulaski ave bus going southbound and the bus was letting off passengers at the stop to board the blue

line train when some big nigga grabbed her chain. Unfortunately, the gold didn’t come off very easily

and he had to yank it really hard again so it would come off. The sad part is other niggas on the bus

(mostly women) said “She should know better than to get on a bus with gold on her neck. she should

have tucked that shit in” and some just laughed at her.

Fuck you rodney king and bulls fans!

Am I sellout for being embarrassed when black people do incredibly stupid shit so the entire

world knows that about half of the American population of blacks are in fact niggas! I know

people that say it is more than fifty percent but those people don’t seem to make the

distinction between being poor and being a nigga. Everyone who is black or brown knows that if

the cops have to chase you they are bringing an ass kicking with them. Rodney King decided to

run from the lapd anyway because was high and tipsy and had some priors. The two men that

were with Rodney were arrested without incident. They didn’t catch a beat down because they

obeyed the white men with the guns and the law behind them. King showed his whole black ass

(as my mother would say) and they proceeded to taser him and bring down a hail of baton

blows on his ass rarely seen on video tape. Thank your made up god for this modern invention.

Without it he would have been just another nigger who had the misfortune of incurring the

wrath of the LAPD. You had whites and cops who said the stomping of King wasn’t really that

bad but 11 skull fractures, permanent brain damage, broken bones and teeth, kidney damage,

emotional and physical trauma say otherwise. Was King guilty? without a doubt. Did he deserve to be

beaten within a inch of his life no of course. With guilty parties on both sides why am I saying fuck

you Rodney King! BECAUSE HE SHOULD HAVE KNOWN BETTER. The man was born and raised in Killer

Cali. He was a criminal who had done time in jail. As a black man who had done dirt on previous

occasions he knew full well the consequences of running from the blue meanies, the piggies, the fuzz,

the thin blue line, the po po . So when mister King was being tased and beaten batons by white men

with badges even in his drunken stupor he know this would be the outcome when blacks and brown

(and whites sometimes) run from the piggies. What pissed me off about the entire Rodney King incident

is the Chicago niggas reaction to this. When the Chicago Bulls won their NBA Championship in 91′ niggas

went ape shit and started ripping up parts of the Westside in celebration of the Bulls win. In April of 92′

after the Rodney king verdict black people around this nation showed their disapproval of police

brutality by proceeding to tear shit up. Did the same people who rioted and robbed stores during the

Bulls victory see this as an excuse to get some kind of social justice and wreak some shit? Not one

smashed window, not one stolen item. I was so pissed! These niggas would riot when the Bulls won but

balked at the chance when blacks around the country were protesting for injustice. Super awesome

black people!

nigga’s vs black people

Let me first start off by saying if you make less than one hundred and fifty thousand a year( and I don’t

count doing a ungodly amount of over time) you are what I call a socio economic nigger. Don’t be

ashamed if you are most of the people I know are. It just means in the eyes of conservative republicans

you don’t make enough to be treated like a human and your children are cannon fodder for wars we

have no business being in (sorry that diatribe is for another chapter)

The black people versus nigga debate has been done but this is my owned slanted view. Most black

aren’t going to like me writing this down and letting the world know our major problem in black

America are niggas plain and simple. It is my contention that fifty percent of the black people living in

America today are……….Niggas. When I say nigga I don’t mean poor people. Flavor flav, half the black

sports stars, most of the rap stars you see on Mtv (I said rap not hip hop there is a difference) are for the

most part niggas. A poor black man or woman who will steal food or commit a small crime to get their family

thru another day. a nigga will take what is not his to buy a new pair of Nikes. A nigga will deal drugs to

live the life he sees on tv or listens to on some gangsta rap bull shit. A smart black will deal drugs to

accumulate wealth so that his children and grandchildren never have to dirty their hands. That black

person is leaving a legacy just like a Kennedy. The nigga goes to jail never the be with his family. I grew

poor as hell and I have done “nigga moves” on three or four time occasions tops. When it comes down

you are a nigga if you want to be. In conclusion, Michael Vick a rich nigga who couldn’t leave the ghetto

behind. Oprah Winfrey, well you now her story. Black people GOOD niggas BAD.

While I’m at it screw you OJ Simpson. You kill two white people and don’t have the common sense to stay

out of the lime light. That’s a dumb nigga move if I ever seen one. Did you think they would forget you

killed your white ex wife and her Jewish boyfriend and think it was safe to come out and play again?

Really? Robert Blake had his wife killed and you haven’t seen one hair on his wife killing head. OJ

Simpson = nigga

My second language

The curse words of any language are the true words of a nation. The privileged and the poor use them

with same amount of gusto although I think the underclass have more reason to use it. Fuck, shit, bitch,

bastard, asshole, cunt, pussy, cock are in my opinion some of the truer words of the western man’s

vocabulary.Yet these words are taboo around polite society (i.e. the cowardly people that call you a bad

word behind your back) Whenever I’m around these people (in-laws) I feel as if I’m being repressed by

some archaic law written when man thought flies formed spontaneously. Of course the races and

ethnicities of the world have always used words to describe outsiders or foreigners to their customs.

Nigger, coon, porch monkey, tar baby, darkie, cracker, blue eyed devil, honky wap, dago, spic

wetback,beaner,dink,chink,gook,heeb,kraut,sand nigger,raghead,towelhead, lips,

hymie, kike, jigaboo ,mick, paddy, paki ,pikey ,pickaninny ,slope, spade ,buck ,whitey ,yid.

Would it bother the reader that most of these words I find extremely funny and most of them sprang from

me directly without the need of a Wikipedia? Get over it. Nigger has been used a lot and I wish the Klan

and other white racist organization would use something more entertaining, Tar baby is much funnier and

hasn’t been used in the past few decades(at least not in the north) Sand nigger isn’t funny but camel

jockey is. Heeb seems boring and not offensive enough but hymie reminds me of that Eddie Murphy skit

on Saturday night live funny ass shit. My own personal experience started with the powerful and true

words of American culture must have started as it has with most children at home with the ones you

love. As some children are is being brought into this world they may be hearing “shit!” and “fuck!” from

the lips of the women who gave them life. Family members at the time of my childhood joked my

mother cursed like a Puerto Rican meaning when she did curse the profanities would stream from her

mouth so quickly it was as if she was speaking Spanish. In my eyes as a child every adult in my family

used “foul” language as if it was a new found religion and they were extremely devout.Bastard, bitches,

fucks and shit were used liberally every day. The only person that I do not recall cursing in front

of my is my father.

Like most children of a young age if I could get away with a curse word without the

interference of a damn adult I would use it frequently because of its power. Adults were not the only

cockblockers in my use of the true words. Little brothers are infamous for ratting you out to mom and

dad and that little bastard brother was not different from the rest of his tattle telling ilk. A class

of my kindergarten classmates ratted me out when I said a word that I can’t readily recall shocked them.

“Adrian said a bad word!” or “I’m telling when miss so and so gets back!” I fanned the fires even more

when the words “Fuck you” pass over my lips as I tried to grab my coat and leave the classroom before

Miss so and so would get back. I didn’t make it. I did get in trouble but I don’t remember it being too

severe. Most might say my use of profanity is unnecessary and in poor taste but I say there is nothing

better than good old fashion “Fuck you!” “Kiss my black ass” springs to mind also. Pick which ever one

suits you and be glad you can say it loud before some Christian conservative (profane words to me) has

it banned.

Pc bull shit or the day I woke up African-American

On one day in my early teens I got up washed my hands, face and feet, brushed my gum holes and set

out to school. After school I either hung out with my friends or went straight home to do my home

work. Dinner was made by someone and I ate it. Knowing how I was at that age I’d probably spanked it

before I went to bed. That night I went to bed as a young black man living in America. That morning I

woke up an African American. What happened in that time span to change who I knew I was for

fourteen / fifteen years to an African American.

Some black and white liberals I’m sure (bet my man marbles Jesse Jackson had something to do with it

too) decide blacks in America needed a new name to separate themselves from the rest of the country.

The dark skin, big lips and nose not enough huh? How come no one told me we were having a vote on

this? No one told anyone I knew about the name change either and would have liked to have had a say.

How about the EX SLAVES? AFRO-NUBIANS would have been pretty damn cool. The Blackacons sounds

futuristic. For better or worse and in all honesty mostly better I am a black American.

“African American” to me is a divisive word. My ancestors have been in this country for quite some time

helping to build this nation and some asshole comes along and decides to put African in front of my

American. African American does not take away the sting of the word nigger, not even close. African

American separates black from the rest of American. We all come from African so is it ok if I call one of a

white friends African German American? That sounds stupid to me and using the word African American

describe descendants of formers slaves in America sounds unnecessary and just plain pc bullshit. When

you see me in the store and you remove your hand bag from the shopping cart to tightly under your arm

do you say “Gee that African American was scary” or “Damn that black guy scared the hell out of me!”