In fear of the things you can’t name or destroy.

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Snowy Day Thoughts

People would like to think science and or religion has civilized us. Nothing

could be further from the truth. We are as rat brained and fear based a species

as our proto human ancestors. Hope is not our greatest asset and hinderance. Fear

plays a much bigger role in who and what we are. Fear created the gun and the

seat belt. Fear is why you are married and have children. Fear is why some of

have better relationships with their animals then there own kind. Do you think racism

would be as prevalate If men didn’t fear someone of another race taking what he

sees as his. When people hope something will come to pass that is indeed still

fear based. Lately I have tried to see my fears and judge them accordingly. Some

still have merit most don’t. The one thing I have never feared is the truth.

I would like to say laziness has made me hate working but I know deep down that is

not true. I can honestly say that I my brain was never made to work a 9 to 5.

Or 8 to 4 or 3 to 11 or 11 to 7. My mind is firing on all cylinders with creative

thought around midnight and what am I doing then. playing at being a cog. The only

reason I work is for my family. if it wasn’t for that fuck you mr. contributing

member of society. With that being said I respect people who can work a job

thirty to forty years scarcely complaining. I almost want to be like them.

almost.

I FIND IT VERY HARD TO GIVE A FUCK ABOUT MOST T

People to keep at an arms length

WOMEN

Why would you trust the best liars in the world? Up to ten percent of women lie about

the parentage of their children. At first glance that seems low but when you think that

out of a hundred people ten of those may not know who their daddy really is. When Chris

Rock said “men tell the most lies but women tell the biggest lies.” is was the truth. When

Sir Arthur Conan Doyle spoke through Sherlock Holmes about how “Women are never to be

entirely trusted” it was the truth. There isn’t one women over the age of thirty who hasn’t

done something that would be contrary to their personality they saw you (fuck a total stranger,

slap one of her kids in a fit of rage, steal money) and justify it with their skewed logic. The

young ,socially inept or just plain dumb man doesn’t get that women aren’t playing

by the same rules as you are. Unbelievably men are slightly (maybe more then slightly) worse.

ADULTS WHO DON’T CURSE

Of course you don’t have to curse as much as I do. I acknowledge that I spew foul words

like a sailor born in a prison but I simply can’t trust a grown man or woman who doesn’t

drop the f bomb or even a lame ass “dammit” on occasion. Any adult who has seen how shitty

and unfair this world can be without screaming a curse word to their fake god is a warped

individual who in all probability does really fucked up things to himself or other

people behind closed doors. Adults who don’t curse are way more fucked up then the rest of

us.

POST RACIAL FUCKERS

You think that because we have a president who is a mixy that racism is done? How stupid

can you fucking be? The Tea Party just happened to be formed around the same time that half

and half got into office. Does that seem like racism is done? I still get those “that nigger

is going to steal something” look when I go into stores WITH my white wife and WITH my three

children. If you think one mixy,who only reached out to blacks to get voted in and left

like a first wife of a movie star as soon as he hits it big, is going to change the minds

of the average racists you are as stupid as i think you are.

BLACK CHRISTIANS

Your kidding right? You do realize that the main reason you are a christ lover is that black

slaves were brought over here and made property. your white god is a god of slavery, misery

and pain. it boogles my fucking mind that blacks still cling to their white sky daddy and his

mini avatar. I have seen so called black christians do so much dirty to simply have their sins

wash away with fake repents. What I hate most of all is the lack of ownership of the shit they

do. The devil didn’t make you steal from the church you did. A demon didn’t make you fuck your

brother in law you did

Things I use to believe

I used to believe that women were actually better than men. A few bad relationships

cured me of that.

When I was a kid I thought humans were like plants and if you give them water and

sunshine their limbs would grow back. odd right.

Before I became what you call an atheist I believed reincarnation and I had

dreams of past lives and I assumed that I would be born an indian boy in the next life.

A part of me still thinks that are dreams are glimpses into alternate realities.

I thought that if a gay couple adopted a “normal” child that they would make him

gay.

White people use to weird me out when I was young. I thought they smelled like wet

dog.

(I married one so clearly I got over it).

I used to wonder what was behind the sun.

I used to think that a girl’s vagina was a lot closer to her belly button.

I thought that getting molested would make me gay. I got the distinct feeling

that my family thought the same.

I used to think that my parents would get back together.

I USE TO THINK THAT IF I CONCENTRATED REALLY HARD THAT I WOULD MAKE MYSELF FLY.

I use to think I was special.

I knew for a fact that I would never cheat on my wife.

I use to think no women would ever love me.

I use to think that there would never be a “black” president.

I use to believe that mankind could prevail over its own nature.

I use to think someone was watching over us.

I use to try and tell myself life could be fair.

I use to think a lot of things that turned out to be false

or an half truth. The only thing that I know for sure is

that this man loves this wife and kids and hopes the world

can pull it’s head out of it’s ass.