In fear of the things you can’t name or destroy.


I like beer. To the rot gut to my standby to the sublime. I don’t start drink beer

until I moved in with my future wife. The first beer I had was a MILLER LITE and I

had to eat sunflower seeds to kill the taste. My taste buds have been refined quite

a bit in twenty years and most like beers may as well be yellow water. As long as there

are new beers made I will try then. This list of beers is by any means complete. My guess

this is a third of the beers I have had.

Most BUDWEISER products: Piss water that gives me a headache.

With MICHELOB being the exception

COORS LITE, MILLER LITE, BUD LITE taste nearly the same

PAULANER SALVATOR: If I believed in a god I would say he made this beer

STELLA ARTOIS: not bad. the after taste is good


HEINEKEN: makes my farts smell like I eat zombie flesh

URBOCK 23: I had this beer in one of those bars that have 99 beers. This beer

was so strong (9.6 % ) I drank two and switch back to regular beer or I would

have run the risk of getting drunk in two hours. awesome.

SOL: not bad

TECATE: my standby Mexican

CORONA: If I need to add lime and salt to drink it why would I by it?

RED STRIPE: FUCK YOU JAMACA. stick to weed and rum

312 URBAN WHEAT: Don’t really know what it means but it is from Chicago and

it’s pretty damn good.


LOWENBRAU: bad farts

BECKS: bad farts

ZIMA: I actually liked it

OLD ENGLISH 800: fuck you


MILLER GENUINE DRAFT: I have had worse

TEQUIZA: my main grip is that it was so week

SAM ADAM’S: nothing to write home about

BLUE MOON: very good

ROLLING ROCK: is/was very good

HONEY BROWN: not bad

GEORGE KILLIAN’S IRISH RED: this is the only beer that I

ever liked and it just stop tasting good.


SAPPORO: 3 out of 5

TSINGTAO: if I wanted a cat to piss in my mouth I would own a cat

GUINNESS: nope!!

On the redline again: will adrian abuse the homeless?


I know what you are thinking why would a person who has love and compassion for

the disenfranchised of our society hurt one of the poor untouchables. When one

of those nasty fuckers takes a piss near in full view of the world that’s when!

I had just got off a pace bus that had picked me up in Niles, IL. I was one of the

overnight supervisors at the brand new Target on Touhy ave. I don’t drive and

my virtually brand new wife was either very pregnant with our first child or she

may have already had the boy so I couldn’t just up and ask her to come and pick

me up at 7am in the morning. It took about two hours to get home and I had just

busted my hump that night because not only was the store new but the holiday

season was coming up and if you ever worked retail you know that shit is very

hectic. I was tired, my feet hurt and I knew that the fucking bus was going to

be packed and I was going to have to stand the majority of the way to the Howard

station. I got off the Pace bus and as I was in the process of making my way up

the stairs to the platform to wait on the train to stop let people off and let me

on (I did like getting on at the Howard stop because you were sure to get a seat)

a really really rough looking woman decided that she needed to use the bathroom

right now and what better place then now. The homeless woman pulled her homeless

dress up and pulled her homeless dirty panties down and took a FUCKING PISS! less

then four feet away from me! Most people were disgusted but made their way home or

work I actually looked at this homeless fucking bitch and the steaming urine that

flowed down the concrete and steel steps of the L in the cold fall morning. I can

honestly tell you that I thought for quite sometime about kicking this bitch back

down the stairs and maybe stomp her out when she landed. I looked at her nappy fucking

hair and her rags she used for warmth and thought better of it. Whatever I went

through in my life her shit must clearly have been way worst then mine and anyone who

would take a piss in front of hundreds of people had some serious mental issues. But I


Fuck you rodney king and bulls fans!

Am I sellout for being embarrassed when black people do incredibly stupid shit so the entire

world knows that about half of the American population of blacks are in fact niggas! I know

people that say it is more than fifty percent but those people don’t seem to make the

distinction between being poor and being a nigga. Everyone who is black or brown knows that if

the cops have to chase you they are bringing an ass kicking with them. Rodney King decided to

run from the lapd anyway because was high and tipsy and had some priors. The two men that

were with Rodney were arrested without incident. They didn’t catch a beat down because they

obeyed the white men with the guns and the law behind them. King showed his whole black ass

(as my mother would say) and they proceeded to taser him and bring down a hail of baton

blows on his ass rarely seen on video tape. Thank your made up god for this modern invention.

Without it he would have been just another nigger who had the misfortune of incurring the

wrath of the LAPD. You had whites and cops who said the stomping of King wasn’t really that

bad but 11 skull fractures, permanent brain damage, broken bones and teeth, kidney damage,

emotional and physical trauma say otherwise. Was King guilty? without a doubt. Did he deserve to be

beaten within a inch of his life no of course. With guilty parties on both sides why am I saying fuck

you Rodney King! BECAUSE HE SHOULD HAVE KNOWN BETTER. The man was born and raised in Killer

Cali. He was a criminal who had done time in jail. As a black man who had done dirt on previous

occasions he knew full well the consequences of running from the blue meanies, the piggies, the fuzz,

the thin blue line, the po po . So when mister King was being tased and beaten batons by white men

with badges even in his drunken stupor he know this would be the outcome when blacks and brown

(and whites sometimes) run from the piggies. What pissed me off about the entire Rodney King incident

is the Chicago niggas reaction to this. When the Chicago Bulls won their NBA Championship in 91′ niggas

went ape shit and started ripping up parts of the Westside in celebration of the Bulls win. In April of 92′

after the Rodney king verdict black people around this nation showed their disapproval of police

brutality by proceeding to tear shit up. Did the same people who rioted and robbed stores during the

Bulls victory see this as an excuse to get some kind of social justice and wreak some shit? Not one

smashed window, not one stolen item. I was so pissed! These niggas would riot when the Bulls won but

balked at the chance when blacks around the country were protesting for injustice. Super awesome

black people!

Books, books and more books

Having a steady source of income made it easier for my to do one of the things I loved to do

most, reading. ‘”If knowledge is power there is no bad knowledge” has always been my motto

since I decided to have a motto. The best way to gain knowledge at the time in my opinion was

thru reading. Gaining new insights have always been a thrill to me. I would have to say it started

with J A Rogers and his book Sex and Race. When I got the chance I bought everything of his I

could possibly get my hands on. From Superman to Man,World’s Greatest Men of African

Descent,One Hundred Amazing Facts about the Negro: with complete shortcut to the world

history of the Negro, World’s Greatest Men and Women of African Descent, The Real Facts

about Ethiopia ,Sex and Race: Negro-Caucasian Mixing in all Ages and all Lands (3 vols.),World’s

Great Men of Color (2 vols.),Nature Knows No Color Line: research in the Negro ancestry in the

white race, Africa’s Gift to America: the Afro-American in the making and saving of the United

States with new supplement: Africa and its potentialities, “Five Negro Presidents”, a pamphlet

about African ancestry of US presidents were all read at least twice. What I truly liked about the

way he wrote contained none of the “kill the white man” venom some books and people

spouted at a very high shrill like volume. It was as professional as his education and high

intelligence allowed. While I did buy not all of these books in 91’ that is the year when I started

my “gaining some knowledge” era

On the other political fringe is a gentlemen call A. Ralph Epperson. Wikipedia says is an

American writer of conspiracy theories. He is known for his anti-Masonic opinions. Epperson is

a strong believer and educator in the Conspiratorial View of History the theory that suggests

everything that has and is happening in America is happening for a reason and is not just a

mere ‘accident’. The only book of his that I read was the Unseen Hand: the Conspiratorial View

of History. This book help me see with “global eyes” and not just one of the people of a down.

War is money and the people who control this planet don’t want you fucking with either. Years

later I had saw that a lot of his teachings were on video tape in a series call Secrets of History. It

was about 27 hours long and I enjoyed most of it with exception of his Christian views. I was an

agnostic who was leaning toward atheist at the time so his diatribe on that particular view

began to grate on my brain after 27 hours. Oddly it may have hastened me to the side of the

non angels and non demons.

Not everything that I read was comics or fringe theory, I was into speculative fiction and fantasy

too! I was part of one those book clubs which had those seven books for one dollar deal. I

picked those books by the indications that it had nudity or rough language. I had never heard of

Graham Masterton and so I had no idea what to expect when I read Master of Lies. The opening

scene is of a home invasion by a serial killer who brutally tortures a family by nailing the

husband and wife to the floor using railroad spikes in the tops of their hands and backs of their

knees and proceeds to………. I have said too much. I would just like to add the book ended with

a confrontation between a man and a fallen angel and no it’s not Satan. I have read books by

Masterton before and after the publication of Master of Lies and I like quite a few but that

book holds a special place in my heart. A very dark place in my heart.

The Art of War and the Prince are two books on how to get power and maintain it. Since I was

on the kill whitey kick I decided to get the Art of War by Sun Wu. In general life is a series of

strategies at work, home or in the bedroom and one must be prepared. I honestly think this is a

book you can give your child in high school and hopefully by the time they are out of college

they will have read some of the chapters gained some insights. Every few years I find myself

reading a chapter or two. It keeps one sharp. I did read eventually read The Prince and I was not


Behold a Pale Horse was one of those books that attracted me the moment I saw the cover.

This was the book that got me started on my never ending journey into the realms of

conspiracy theories (I had read BAPH before the Unseen Hand) Milton William Cooper linked

the US government with ufo cover ups. He wrote about the moon landing, the new world order

(Bilderberg,Illuminati) and hijacking of the presidency by said order. BAPH tied everything

together and made you believe that we were getting fucked on all levels. In this book I was

introduced to the protocols of the elders of Zion. Even the man’s death seems like a

conspiracy. But again I found this man’s faith in God and Jesus off putting.

I picked up Secret Societies and Subversives Movements simply because of the title of the book.

Turns out Nesta Webster was a old school Jew hater and believed that protocols of the elders of

Zion were true she even had Churchill quote some of her theories on the French Revolution.

Her book was somewhat interesting but it was kind of dated.

The Isis papers by Frances Cress Welsing posed that ” that white people are the genetically

defective descendants of albino mutants” of dark people who may have been driven out of the

motherland for being freaks and that the reason whites are so aggressive is that they can so

easily lose their pure whiteness by mating with the darker races and have the overriding urge to

protect their whiteness. Is this not what skin heads believe also? I am amazed how people

literally from polar opposites think in the same wave length . It would be an insult to place her

silliness in the same category as JA Rogers. How many whites did she interview and

psychoanalyze before she came up with this shit. It is a funny read though.

I read Forbidden Knowledge: the Gap in Vision before I read the Real Story: the Gap in Conflict

so I was kind of at a loss with the storyline. But you could get the jest of the plot from the inner

dialogue of the main character Morn Hyland. The story is long and complex as you would

expect a five book storyline to be. I had heard of Stephen R. Donaldson due to the The

Chronicles of Thomas Covenant, the Unbeliever (which I have not read) but I had no idea this

space saga would be better than 2001: a space Odyssey (my opinion of course). I could see

most of the events actually happening somewhere in the far future. Zone implants, Gap

sickness, force grown babies, and weldings all seem very possible.

Books like DOPE, INC and The African Origin of Civilization: Myth or Reality? and many others

caught my attention. I could write more but you get the point that I like “odd” books rights?