People would like to think science and or religion has civilized us. Nothing
could be further from the truth. We are as rat brained and fear based a species
as our proto human ancestors. Hope is not our greatest asset and hinderance. Fear
plays a much bigger role in who and what we are. Fear created the gun and the
seat belt. Fear is why you are married and have children. Fear is why some of
have better relationships with their animals then there own kind. Do you think racism
would be as prevalate If men didn’t fear someone of another race taking what he
sees as his. When people hope something will come to pass that is indeed still
fear based. Lately I have tried to see my fears and judge them accordingly. Some
still have merit most don’t. The one thing I have never feared is the truth.
I would like to say laziness has made me hate working but I know deep down that is
not true. I can honestly say that I my brain was never made to work a 9 to 5.
Or 8 to 4 or 3 to 11 or 11 to 7. My mind is firing on all cylinders with creative
thought around midnight and what am I doing then. playing at being a cog. The only
reason I work is for my family. if it wasn’t for that fuck you mr. contributing
member of society. With that being said I respect people who can work a job
thirty to forty years scarcely complaining. I almost want to be like them.
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